Halloween Party

Bwaaaaaa! I have been invited to a Halloween party and I intend to go. Dressing up is fun, guess thats why I chose the Arts. I am going as as Japanese/French Iron Chef HIROYUKI SAKAI. I am not sure if anyone at the party will know who he is, but I will look like an Asian male and I am a caucasian female, so I will do. Iron Chef Sakai is a Japanese chef who specializes in French Cuisine, as well as other types. He is a Master Chef. I don't know but a few people that will be at the party and am only close to one, so I plan on mostly observing. I will let you know if anything interesting happens.

insane

The world has gone insane.
Everyone is guilty
I don't know who to blame.
shame shame


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12/03

Oh My Aching Head - October 19, 2005

I felt it before I opened my eyes this morning. Someone had apparently come in my room, as I slept and hammered some type of large nail in my head. The pain was intense. When I did open my eyes, the culprit was gone. I thought, "Maybe , I should go to the emergency room to remove the nail." Instead I took an Elieve and put a cold cloth on my eyes.. I went back to sleep and thank goodness, someone snuck in and removed the nail. I think I will make it now.

Mistake

I am thinking that I should have kept this blog private. It has been a refuge. When I started blogging in 2001, this was a place I could go and say the things you can't say. Nonetheless, they were in my head and I felt the need to let the thoughts out, no matter how black or depressing. They are very real to me. Not the kind of thoughts you want family or friends to know about though. They can't fix you, so why burden or worry them.One of my friends did see this after I went public. She was quite concerned about my mental health. Little does she know that writing things out, keeps me stablized. I always said I was insane, but stable. I assured her that most of this was written long ago, I even caught myself going to the archives and editing myself, so she wouldn't read and know how black I am. I don't want to abandon this blog. The good news for me is that she is pretty computer illiterate and probably didn't link to this feed and probably didn't save the addy. I will keep public for now. Maybe there are others like me.

All is Fresh

I feel renewed by the Autumn rains and the cool sweet air.
She is gone now and I can breath. All is fresh.